After Christmas there is another holiday in my house……….my birthday is December 26.
This year, I am 50 years old………yikes!
I was hardly phased by 40……life seemed good, and yet so much has changed since then. Ten years ago I had 6 year old girls and a 2 year old son. I was working full time in banking and while busy thought we were living a good life………..things changed a lot after that……….my MIL becoming ill was just one thing that prompted big changes in our life. I felt I needed to leave work to care for her and so began my temporary life as a SAHM………ha ha, 9 years later and I’m still here and quite honestly I love it if it weren’t for the lousy pay!
So 50……..it sounds old, it sound mature, it sounds grandmotherly, in total, it doesn’t sound like me. I know all the lines, age is just a number, it’s not your age that matters but how you live, etc. I’m taking it as a personal challenge to defy the odds and become better and healthier and even try more happiness in this year of being 50. I mentioned how down I’d been feeling a few days ago, and I’m hoping that with my focus on me and my health, I can begin to feel better.
So to celebrate my half centennial birthday Kevin and I went to the movies and out to dinner. We saw ” It’s Complicated” and I loved it!! 5 ++ stars!!! We laughed so hard I know we missed lines in the movie, the theater was rolling with laughter. There were things I related to so much, on feeling older, trying to regain that sexy feel with the man I love etc. I have several friends that saw it and felt the same way, and one that really didn’t enjoy the movie, so if you go and see it, and you don’t enjoy it…….oops I’m sorry….ha ha!!
Between the movie and dinner I was reading on my iPhone emails and facebook updates. Both my neice and nephew had left status updates as to what bad day it had been. I was worried,so I texted my neice who told me that between it being the day her other grandfather had passed away 4 years ago,and Urban Meyer leaving UF(stupid) and my dad being taken to the hospital it was just a bad day…………WHAT my dad in the hospital………..what happened………OMG, and no one called me. Ooops she realized she messed up. Expect a post very soon about social network sites and what is and isn’t appropriate to write.
So my sister calls me, I am frantic and pissed I’ve been kept in the dark. Long story short, my dad fell in the shower, well out of the shower and hit his head on the tile and was bleeding profusely, and it knocked him out for @ 10 min. My mom, while frantic, did all the right things, pulled the emergency cord in their Ind. Living apartment for the staff, called 911, and called my sibs. This was @ 4-5 hours before I was learning about it. My sister was trying to not worry me until they had more answers and so she was going to call me when she could tell me more. Dad got @ 8 staples in his head, no broken bones, and for the most part he was ok. I was unkind to my sister, telling her that she should not have waited so long, my anger was over the top. When I calmed down I apologized, and she did too.
Unfortunately my dad has had an up and down week. He is 85 years old(in 3 weeks) and he’s been having TIA’s or mini-strokes. The Drs are looking for clots and causes and he’s in the right place. Mom is ok, though naturally worried about the man she has been with for 65 years.
I will try to update about dad as it changes……….I’m just praying and hoping I’m doing the right thing by staying in FL while he is in TX. It is very hard to be so far away, but I have a family here too, and you can’t just pick up and drive or fly 1000 miles all the time. I’m defending my decision I know, so forgive me.
So that is what has happened in the last 5 days to me. I’m a year older, and yet not much wiser.