As I sit here, 1:39am, Sunday night/Monday morning, I’ve got a million thoughts running through my head. You may be wondering why I’m awake, no special reason, slept in, now still awake. I’m just fine, but my mind is busy.
I had Kevin help me home highlight my hair…..not the first time I’ve done this at home, but hey, it may be my last….eek gads. Tomorrow I’m going red………no picture promises, who the heck knows what it’s going to look like.
I’ve enjoyed a relaxed weekend, wonderful weather, good books, and family. Caitie has been away, state Student Government Association conference, she’s had little sleep, lots of fun, and she’ll be home tomorrow. I have missed her a little bit, she is a good kid.
Have you ever questioned the options we have in choosing to belong to an organized religion or not, in which faith we align our beliefs or not?
I was raised in a very non traditional non practicing Baptist home. We occasionally/rarely went to church. My faith was more about my parents believed in God and his son Jesus, and so I must believe that too. I visited other churches and faiths with the friends I had, you know sleep overs that led to tagging along with the family to their church. Some churches invited and encouraged wrangling in one’s friends to attend Sunday School or youth events. None of this really helped me find my faith.
In college I kept looking, but not until I was about 24 and had lived through a really tragic lost love did I do my own grown up searching for something beyond my own wants and desires. I fell in love with the forgiveness and love I found in the Catholic church…………..that was of course many years ago now…….I married a man in this faith, in the church. We gave birth, baptized and educated our three children in this faith too.
Now I still have faith, I like having a belief in something much larger than me, than my ho hum boring life.(in jest) I even enjoy the feeling I have celebrating my appreciation of a superior being.
I have doubts about the limitation the Catholic church sets on some things, things I disagree about.
I have many, birth control, a woman’s right to choose, sex, oh the sex and how you can and can’t have it on so many levels, or with whom you want…yes you read that right….the forbidden gay sex.
So that is my deep thought, can you belong to or believe in a church or doctrine if you have too many differences?
I consider myself a liberal when it comes to most issues, fiscally more conservative, not a believer that the government or country owes us everything. I believe adults get to choose how they love and live. I believe being gay is how a person is born, not a choice, and I don’t believe God would create a person as a mistake.
So I’m struggling, and I wonder if there is a place for a person with liberal views and a higher belief. Do we just take the parts of an organized religion we like and turn a blind eye to those we don’t?
Feel free to comment, share openly…….I really hope I can get some other ideas.